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"Mum you know Grandma? Where is she?" Younger Jax had asked her mother. Jax’s mother had sighed and stared into her little girls eyes "Grandma is happy and in somewhere you are better off when you leave this life" The mother said soothingly. Little Jax had wanted to know this question for a while ever since her mother had gone and come back from the hospital one to many times "Mummy will you go to the same place as Grandma anytime soon?" Jax’s mother had let out a long sigh and tried to smile a reassuring smile "Jax I will be visiting that place very soon, your dads going to need some looking after can you do that for me?" Jax was confused by what her mother had said and just replied "Yes mummy".
Young Jax never quite understood what her mother had meant by this, but she got an idea on the 16th of june.

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What was wrong with me? I mean how many times had I been in and out of the hospital already, how long would it take for them to give me the final result. I bit my bottom lip this had become a frequent thing for whenever i was sitting at the doctors now leaving an indent in my lip. "Jax Burnsen" called Doctor Blunt. I rose from my chair he smiled and earged me on I gave a weak smile for i knew his was artificial and behind that smile held a mass of awful news. I walked down the lengthy blue hallway I don’t know if it was my mind but i could smell the sickness in these rooms. I shuddered and felt nausea creeping up on me. Doctor blunt twisted around checking if i was still following I nodded. It wouldn’t be hard for him to think I wasn’t following it would be difficult to just hear a footstep of me i was light and thin. I felt like that though thin, painfully thin. It seemed one of those never ending corridors I had seemed to be walking for some times now.
Eventually we reached a room, at this moment in time dealing with this news it would feel better to be the doctor instead of the patient. However the case was I was the disease infected patient. I hate that word "Disease" along with Infection, Decay, Sickness. But all those words led back to me. I settled onto the seat attempting to get comfortable, impossible i was in a doctors office it was hopeless to ever feel content in a doctors office well especially for my condition. I looked up Doctor blunt was already scanning through his documents, he than focused his gaze at me he went to open his mouth no words seemed to come out, that was never good. He shook his head slowly. "Jax I’m affraid your Cancer is Fatal" Doctor Blunt let out a sigh. "Incurable" I tried to suck in some air to speak i managed to spit out "Terminal?" A tear came down my cheek softly. "Yes, I’m so Sorry" I looked away I didn’t want to cry. I turned back and met his stare his eyes peirced into mine "How long do i have Blunt?" He stammered "That is something i’m not 100% with Jax, It could be less than a year or more its not determined yet" Great, That was reassuring. I couldn’t help but think of Dad he would struggle without me, it would be wrong to just leave a day with him by himself let alone… Permantley. Doc Blunt spoke of nothing just hanged his head as if he was in shame.
Doc Blunt had been my Doctor since i was born he also treated my family, well lets put it he was like family, I could see how hard this was for him. "Thankyou Blunt for everything" A actual non forced smile found its way to my lips it was true i was thankful. "Jax there is one thing theres a new form of tablet" he paused and ruffled through his papers "Jax i’m not promising anything, theres a chance this tablet could reduce and kill some cancer making it easier for us to operate". My insides stopped twisting for a moment. A chance? Any chance I would take to be healthy again. "Yes! Anything I’ll do it!" I blurted out not thinking. Blunt seemed a bit startled from my instant reaction, "Jax a chance it’s not determined not many hospitals are using this drug It could be a risk."
He assured hopefully. He was right he made everything so much better he found a goodness in everything. I laughed, Who knew i could laugh about cancer but i was it felt actually good. "Yeah".
"Well Kiddo! I’ll see you next Friday i’d love to stay and chat with you but i have patients" He grinned. "Sure thing Blunt Catchya" I picked up my bag and launched it over my shoulder and headed for the door i did a little wave to Blunt. Well that was the worse possible news and i got it.
-The 16th of June.

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I stared at the clock on the wall waiting for the 6th period bell to ring over

Truthfully? It has potential. It’s not perfect but with a little work it will be a good read. =}D

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